I still cherish you..

Deep inside my heart while laying on my couch before going into deep slumber I pity myself "what a loser I am and what a fool I have been?". Its the way I cherish you every night. I confess the curiosity and the intensity has fallen down but I cannot for a moment accept that someone could ever and will ever replace you. I deserved you, yet I am the loser I am. By losing you nothing must have changed for you but for me it has been hell. I lost my confidence and foremost the inspiration. I will never be what I was when you were there for me. You explored the pinnacle of the best I could be.

I remember the moments of dispersal and that of my folly. I intentionally kept you away from me till the time the gap became too much. You know I tried to redeem myself but I just could not do it. So now like poets this is now my evergreen hobby to vent my frustration and grief with writing proses in your honor. I hope Allah would not mind this.